Im sorry friend, i been through a lot in my life as well. For me though laughing it off was my best bet. Finding the humorous side of life was always a joy! Hope that helps, i know the world can be brutal and unyielding, but a good sense of humor goes along way if your willing to let it! Here's my favorite youtube vid i always goto to get a good laugh! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ItZyaOlrb7E The wrong drummer is good!
HardwiredMusic
Well, I can't think of anything to say really. I never had the guts to hurt myself honestly, so that was great/bad but to make you feel a little better, everyone has been through this, some of us can just hide it better. Also, you said you and your close friends are all suicidal, but that at least proves you HAVE close friends, all mine live a thousand miles and 40 farenheight degrees away. And although you may not agree, if you have close friends, a family, and the internet, what else can you want? I hope your life gets better but the reality of it is this, and I hope you remember this FOREVER: If you don't stand for something you might fall.. for anything. The end is where you begin.
Skiddle
My close friends are some ways away, sadly. And thanks for the support :3 I will remember that little message at the end <3